Boundless

Tomorrow...Well, Actually Today

Sat, 20 Oct 2007 05:55:49 GMT

I'm going to see the 3-D Nightmare Before Christmas with my sister. I'm kinda dragging her along haha. But it's no fun going to the movies alone! I love 3-D stuff so I'm looking forward to it. She's also doing some shopping so I guess I'll tag along for that. What a boring entry, huh?

Again..

Sat, 20 Oct 2007 05:49:11 GMT

Lol, I'm back on this LJ shit again. I'll do a proper update later! :-)

What's up

Wed, 25 Jul 2007 23:51:09 GMT

Oh my gosh, it's storming so bad right now. And it's pissing me off because it keeps shutting the power off. I really should just turn my computer off and wait for the storm to pass because I don't want it to get damaged. But whatever, I have a warranty lol.

Ehhh, I haven't been out of the house in two days. Whenever this happens I get really moody and feel like crap. But luckily, music cures all. I played one of my mix cds and all became right with the world. All of this college crap has been stressing me out! There are so many things that need to be taken care of-- immunization records, tests, parking passes, ID, etc, etc. I hate this. I guess I really shouldn't let it get to me like this but something just always happens to magically go wrong in my life. I just want to start classes already so I know everything is in order.

Lately I've been noticing a small weight loss. I know it's because I haven't been eating much. I'm not starving myself or anything stupid like that. It's just that my appetite has somehow gone AWOL on me. It's really quite random how I would suddenly not feel hunger for most of the day. It probably has something to do with the fact that I've been forgetting to take my GERD medicine and I've been a little nauseous. So losing weight is nice and all that but hunger, feel free to return at any time lol.

It's been a while

Sat, 21 Jul 2007 05:24:53 GMT

Man...It's been ages since I updated this thing! I slowly stopped updating and then I kinda just forgot that I even had an LJ. But I guess I'm back....Not sure for how long, but for the time being. Since my last post a few things changed but not many. The only big change is that I stopped being lazy and got myself a job. $$$$

I'll be starting uni in August. Woo hoo!...I guess. Lol, I'm not excited in the least. It just feels like a burden but it must be done in order to have a good life. Most of my close friends are going to the same university as me so that's something to look forward too.

Another thing to look forward to my planned trip to Korea with one of my best buds. It's supposed to happen next year but there are a few knots in the rope. I hope everything turns out okay because I'm really looking forward to this.

I don't really have much else to say. :-)

Twister

Thu, 22 Feb 2007 21:41:25 GMT

That title has absolutely nothing to do with this blog. I couldn't think of a name and they're playing Twister on Full House right now, so I just used that lol. Anyway, I'm bored so I thought I'd write a new blog.

To be honest, not much has happened since the last one. I dropped Anatomy because I really, really hate that class. And not only that, I just don't want to be a nurse anymore. I've decided that I want to be a teacher. I'm thinking when I finish college in two years I'll go teach English in China. Going to China really is my dream. I'm not sure how long I'll be doing that. Two years? Three? Seven? I don't know. There's a lot to think about with that. If I do go to China, whenever I come back (if I come back...I might love it too much to live here again) I'll teach in an elementary school here. So those are my plans. I'm really looking forward to China. I have a friend there who says he will show me around. I just hope we're still friends by then! Two years is a long time from now, but at the same time it'll be here before I know it. I'm excited and scared at the same time. China is very different than America. I know what to expect, but when I get there the culture shock will still throw me for a loop.

During all of this, I also have to go to Korea with Robyn! That will be fun. Alicia says she'll go too, but there might be an issue with her college and timing. But I think we'll figure that out when it's time. In the meantime, I'm going to take Chinese when I start university in the fall. There are no schools here that teach Korean, so I don't know how I'm going to learn that.

Lately I've been getting more into Jay Chou. He's so brilliant, but he's also repetitive. I find that a lot of his songs sound just like each other. For example Lan se feng bao (Blue Storm) sounds exactly like Haung jin jia (Golden Armor). I mean, the first time I heard them I was like, "I just listened to this." But then I realized they were two different songs that sound too much alike. There are a few others that sound exactly alike, too. But his music is so awesome! He's so good at what he does it almost makes you overlook the similar songs. Honestly, everybody should try his music. Some of his songs actually make me cry, like Fa ru xue (Hair Like Snow). But enough about Jay Chou, lol, this paragraph is too long.

So, life. Mine isn't that good. It's very boring. The only things I like about my days are talking to my penpals. I hardly ever go out. Although yesterday I did go out with Robyn and Brittany. That was fun. Actually, February has been particularly active for me. There was Andre's party, Alicia's house, and Robyn and Brittany. But this is a freak occurence!!! Lol, it's not usually like this. Although it would definitely be nice if it was. I need a job. Yesterday at the Town Center I saw so much stuff I wanted to buy.

Also, I got to see a Playstation 3 game for the first time. I don't know what it was called but it was a Japanese action fantasy game with English subtitles. The graphics were like crazy amazing. It was stunning. Everything was so clear and the colors were so vivid. And the game itself looked really awesome. It looked like a lot of fun. I really wish I could get a PS3. But there are two things stopping me: I don't have any money and currently there aren't any in stores. Even if I did have money, I would not pay like $4000 online for one. That's crazy.

I think I've been getting better with my self-image. Usually I hate how I look and I feel like I'm very ugly and everyone around me looks better than I do. But I don't know, I guess I'm just starting not to be so down on myself. Yay for me. Lol, this is the shortest paragraph out of all of them. Shows how much I have to say about that!

Right now I'm watching Golden Girls. This show is awesome. Period. Those old ladies crack me up. I guess I've written enough. When I write stuff I tend to go on and on. So I'll stop here and finish watching the follies of senior citizens. Byyye.^^

I'm Out

Sat, 27 Jan 2007 02:22:49 GMT

The easiest and hardest thing for me to do is neglect studying Anatomy. It's easy because that means I won't be reading boring anatomy stuff. It's hard because I feel incredibly guilty that I'm neglecting such important work, and it nags at me until I break down and crack open the book. *sigh* T-T

Recently I have discovered Liu Ye.

He was in Curse of the Golden Flower as Crown Prince Wan. He's so gorgeous to me. His face is...for lack of a better word, unconventional. Maybe interesting is better? Anyway, I find him to be incredibly handsome and as a result--and because he's a really good actor--I want to see more of his movies. I read that he was really good in a film called Lan Yu, so I'd like to see that.

Lately I haven't been up to much. Just the usual: neglecting anatomy and spending too much time on the computer. Me needs a social life, yo. Lol, why did I just type that sentence? Oh well; it amuses me.

The other day I realized that the Leehom concert was getting closer and I was like "Gaaah, why does it have to be CONNECTICUT??" What's in Connecticut anyway? A large Asian American population maybe? I dunno, but there has to be a good reason for going there. It just seems random. But even if it wasn't CT, it certainly wouldn't be anywhere in the South. Maybe there aren't too many people here that like Asian music or maybe the singers just forget about the South. I'm guessing it's a combination of both so I'm doomed unless I move to Vegas, Cali, or New York. Sometimes Jrock or Jpop people will play anime conventions. That's the only good thing I can say about the South when it comes to Asian music.

Speaking of Leehom, I finally got my Heroes of Earth Concert set. It was AMAZING. The man is so talented; it's really unbelieveable. His voice is so incredible and I can tell that he put 120% into his performances. Another plus was that I got to hear some songs that I've never heard before, so I got to experience more of his music. I pretty much loved every song he played. In short, I adore it and I've watched it like 3 times already.

Recently I've gotten into the penpal thing so I have a couple of penpals in China, Taiwan, and South Korea. One of my Chinese penpals gave me a Chinese name, Cheng XiaoKe. 程小可 I think it's really pretty. It sounds nice. But I've always liked the sound and look of Chinese names. Which brings me to my next point. Lately, I've been thinking about being a nurse and I feel like it's not for me. Like, anatomy doesn't interest me and neither do the other classes and I feel like I'm going to nursing school just because it pays well. But I'm really interested in Chinese culture and I have been for a long time. It's like, one of my passions. Also, I really want to learn Chinese. So I've been wondering if maybe I should change my major to Chinese with a minor in East Asian Studies. The only thing is that I'm not sure what type of career I would get and if I would need to live in China. That's something I've been thinking about for a while.

So that's pretty much all I've been up to. Life is still uneventful but some days are better than others.

Like a Gunshot

Wed, 17 Jan 2007 22:15:43 GMT

Do you guys ever feel like you don't have a single friend in the world? I do. Pretty much all the time. And to be honest, I don't really have any friends. Two of them I never get to see...ever. That's because they live so far away on the other side of town. One of them...Her mother never lets her go anywhere and we don't even have the same schedule at the college. And the last one...I never see him because he always off with his other friends. So I'm pretty much alone all the time. I'm really not trying to whine, but it sucks and I need to vent. I feel lonely a lot. And it doesn't help that I'm extremely shy. Because of that I don't talk to anyone in my classes. But most of them are too old anyway.

Obviously I need to stop being shy and learn to put myself out there. But its easier said than done, especially if you've been shy your entire life like I have. And the whole self-esteem thing doesn't help either. My self-esteem is really low. I hardly ever feel pretty and I always think that if I try to have a conversation with someone I'll end up saying something stupid or boring. Ah, I really suck for that. And I don't really know how to change this stuff about myself. I don't know how to start conversation with someone and stop worrying about how I look or sound all the time. Ugggh.

And I think I'm different. I'm pretty sure that the things I'm interested in like East Asian culture, music, history, movies, etc... are in the minority here. I mean, that's not all I'm into, but those things are a heavy chunk of my life. As a result of all of this I have no one to go out with, no one to just chill with. So what's a girl to do??? I'm sure there's at least somebody around me that likes the things I do. But my problem is speaking up, asking questions, talking. So I guess until I learn to stop being shy, I'll remain pretty much friend-less.

I'm sure this is "emo" or whatever, but I don't care. That's a stupid word anyway. Anytime a person is upset about something they're dubbed "emo" and are made to feel bad because they have emotions. I know that some "emo kids" are over the top, but not everyone's like that so that's a stupid slang word that shouldn't be applied to everyone. But that's not important right now! Anyway, I just felt like I needed to say this stuff.

Savvy?

Mon, 15 Jan 2007 06:36:43 GMT

Yesterday I went to the movies to see Curse of the Golden Flower (满城尽带黄金甲) starring Chow Yun-Fat and Gong Li. A more literal translation would be The City of Golden Armor. When I was buying my ticket at the box office, I was already expecting for it not to be that full because the movie had already been out for a day and most people on that particular side of town that I went to wouldn't be interested in a Chinese film. I buy my popcorn and Icee and I walk in the theater....to see that no one else is in there.

Needless to say I was shocked. I was expecting it to be a little lacking in people, but it was completely empty. It was really scary and really cool at the same time. I went to the very top and sat down and I was actually starting to look forward to being the only one in there until this lady came in. Then about 6 other people came in but no one came to the top, so I was still generally alone. Lol, I've never had that happen before.

Anyway, I thought the movie was amazing. Visually, everything was stunning. Everything and everyone looked beautiful. Gong Li and Jay Chou looked so natural and beautiful/handsome in period costume. I could easily imagine them existing in that time. The palace was so amazing. Everything really drew me in. The movie could have survived off the scenery alone. It looked that good. The acting was really good, too. Everyone did a really good job. I've seen two of Gong Li's movies and one of Chow Yun-Fat's movies so I already knew that they were good actors. But Jay Chou surprised me. It was my first time seeing him act and he did really well. Two thumbs up to him. There was an actor that I hadn't seen before named Liu Ye. He was really good, too. And he was really handsome! So I want to check out some of his other movies. I won't tell the plot in case some of you haven't seen it, but the movie is full of twists. The plot was pretty good. The ending really surprised me. Jay Chou's song during the credits was beautiful. His ballads are always really good and I love the Chinese instruments he uses. Overall, I loved the movie and I can't wait for it to go on DVD.

After that I went to Wal-Mart and bought some things to send to my penpal and a poster of Johnny Depp as Captain Jack Sparrow. So that was my weekend. I haven't been up to much, other than procrastinating with my Anatomy homework. I can't begin to explain how much I hate this class. It's so much to study and remember. But I guess this is my fate if I want to become a nurse.

Ah, 1:34 am...It's so late. I'm going to bed.

Eh...

Sat, 23 Dec 2006 21:28:17 GMT

I haven't updated this in awhile.

Just got back from Mexico on Monday. It was really hot. I could not live in a place that has heat like that year round. And it was just December, so I can only imagine what it's like in June.

Currently I'm contemplating what to spend my money on. So far I've decided on:

-Leehom Wang - Heroes of Earth Live Concert 2 DVD + 2 CD
-Buden Akindo bag
-Jet Li's Fearless
-Rumbling Hearts

That's it so far. I don't wanna go broke so I wanna hold off for a little while.

I'm so glad the semester is over. That College Algebra almost killed me. But I survived, only to be tortured with Statistics this coming January.

Blah

Thu, 30 Nov 2006 05:09:26 GMT

There's going to be an anime convention in Jacksonville next October. Its called Janicon.

How cool is that?

http://www.janicon.org

And...I really should clean my MYV ROCKS bag. Its white, so it looks like crap now after 6 months of use.

Got that fever...

Sun, 26 Nov 2006 19:45:46 GMT

So...um, I still haven't been up to much. The Googims sweatshirt that I've been raving about finally came yesterday. I practically flipped out when I saw the mailman walking up the door with my package.

Still catching that Leehom fever. The man is a musical genius...And that's actually not too far from the truth. I was going to put in my order for the Heroes of Earth 2 DVD + 2 CD set from YesAsia, but I had to let my sister borrow $15 and now I have to wait until I get paid back on Tuesday. But I did send in my money for Winter Sonata, so I'll have something to tide me over until my Leehom stuff gets here. And I was saving my money to go to Jacon 2007, but now my priorities have changed since Leehom is supposed to be finishing up his world tour here in America and Canada in 2007. I have no idea where he's going to be playing and I doubt he'll come to Florida. But I'm still kinda hoping anyway.

Sometimes I wonder if I meant to have a boring life. I don't do much but sit around listening to music or watching tv, things of that nature. I don't have many friends and the ones I do have barely go out anywhere. I suck at meeting new people and I'm tremendously shy so that doesn't help any, lol. So what's a girl to do? I have no idea!

I can't explain how badly I want my classes to end. College Algebra is killing me and I'm not sure whether or not I'm failing. I'm just at that point where I'm tired of school, ya know? I'm ready for winter break...Good thing its only about 17 days away.

That crazy nut...

Wed, 22 Nov 2006 21:18:39 GMT

Something is seriously wrong with me. I've been having the worst mood swings of all time. I'll get pissed and then I'll get depressed and stay that way for a few hours until some good music coaxes me out of it. FREAK! Lol, no, seriously though, its annoying me.

Recently, I've gotten very into Leehom Wang. He's a R&B/Hip Hop/Pop singer of Taiwanese descent. Let me tell you, he's awesome. And kinda-sorta hot...Okay, he's pretty good-looking but sometimes he looks weird. But that's not the point. The point is, Leehom is beginning to rock my socks and I have started my journey to own his albums and concert DVDs, specifically the Heroes of Earth album and DVD. That means saving money and being broke for awhile, lol. I'm actually kinda getting into Chinese and Taiwanese music as a whole. Don't get me wrong, I've Jrock/Jpop and Kpop, but I'm trying to broaden my horizons a little.

And my "best friend" actually acknowledged the fact that she hasn't seen me in a week and half. I told her that she knows I'm always either at home or at school and she gave some garbage reply about how that's the key...I guess that means she doesn't want to or can't drive to my house sometimes. Whatever. I left after that little exchange. She says I should call, I told her she should call me.

I wish my Googims sweatshirt would get here already. Its supposed to come today, but I haven't been home to see if its been delivered. Googims is this South Korean name brand...And its kind of expensive. But what isn't?

So that's been my day. I guess I'll spend the rest of it listening to music and wasting time...Something to that effect.

Gobble-gobble.

Man...

Sun, 19 Nov 2006 04:23:11 GMT

I need a job. Lol, it seems like I'm always whining about needing a job. But there's only certain parts of town that I work on because they're close to my house, but none of the places are hiring. I won't be able to go to JACON without a job. I'm trying to get a cosplay commissioned and I found someone to do it, but now I'm out of money because I just bought a sweatshirt from this expensive South Korean name brand, Googims.

The cosplay I'd like to do is Ayumi Hamasaki from her Ladies Night PV (the pink and blue outfit):

In other news....I'm DYING to get out and have fun. I want to go to local concerts and museums and what not, but none of my friends are into that stuff. I guess I could always go by myself, but its not fun that way and I'm not good at meeting people and making friends. I also want to do something different with my hair. I'm tired of the same old style, its just shoulder length with side-swept bangs. I want to do something funky, but not something that's a pain to grow out because my hair takes forever to grow.

BoA's releasing her 5th Japanese album in 2007. Based on this year's singles, I don't really have high hopes for it. Out of all the singles she released, the only songs I cared for were Nanairo no Ashita~brand new beat, Key of Heart, and Cosmic Eyes. But maybe she'll surprise me. Personally, I'm ready for more dance songs like Moto and Girls on Top. I wonder when Zhang Li Yin's album is coming out. I love her single, Timeless with Xiah Junsu from D.B.S.K. She has an amazing voice and they say she can dance like BoA and because of that, people are calling her the Chinese BoA. I think that's stupid. People are already placing her in another artist's shadow. Let her shine on her own and be free of comparisons.

My online Earth Space Science class ends in approximately 39 minutes, Eastern Time. I'm so glad because that's one less class that I have to worry about. Now all I have to do is get through the other three and I'll be done December 14th, and then its on to the cruise. Its going to the Bahamas and Mexico, so I'm really looking forward to that.

So that's pretty much it.

Tue, 14 Nov 2006 20:46:38 GMT

So, this is me, I'm not a raving beauty. Nothing special, just an ordinary face, but its my face.

Lol, doing the whole Asians-make-peace-signs-in-pictures thing. I took this a couple weeks ago. Notice the failing attempt at Jrock hair.

I took this today.

So, I wanted to put a couple pictures on here so I won't be some faceless entity. I'm nothing special, but I wanted to put them here nonetheless.

Slipping into that territory...

Tue, 14 Nov 2006 03:30:23 GMT

Why is it that the girl who claims to be my best friend, does not act like a best friend? I think she's only my best friend when its convenient, such as having classes together. If she doesn't see me all the time, she won't bother to call me or anything. And she has a car, yet she never asks me do I want to go anywhere. I'm getting pretty sick of that and I don't have many friends as it is, but I might have to cut her loose. I told her about all of this and she tried to flip it and make it look like I'm the one that's being distant when that's not the case at all.

Its a good thing she's not my only best friend. I have another one, Alicia. And she's always down for being my friend, whether we have classes together or not, which we don't right now. I'm more comfortable with her anyway. I don't even consider the other my best friend anymore.

Yes, I am feeling quite emo right now.

It just bothers me that I don't really have anyone to hang out with. Alicia's mom never lets her go anywhere, its kinda insane.

I feel like a loner a lot. And sometimes it bothers me, other times I don't give a crap. But its just one of those days today.

On another note, I'm totally into http://www.dreamkitty.com things. They're like, amazingly cute. I want to get so much stuff from that site.

With all that being said, I'm done here for now.

Garbage...

Mon, 13 Nov 2006 17:00:00 GMT

Today sucked. Ever since I went to the eye doctor yesterday, my left eye had been feeling very irritated and painful, to the point that I was in tears. So I went back today and the doc said I have an inflamed irritation in my eye and I have to use these medicated eyedrops for 5 days, 4 times a day and I can't wear my contacts til Saturday. That sucks.

This whole fiasco also caused me to miss class, and I haven't been to class for a week due to other medical reasons. So now I feel like I might get behind. I have a lot of catching up to do.

And I need a job. I can't go to Jacon next year if I don't have a job.

Boring Day

Mon, 13 Nov 2006 03:10:00 GMT

Today was somewhat a good day. I finally got my contacts that I've been dying for the last 8 months. I just think I look better in contacts than with my glasses. And I spent about half an hour doing the dumbest paper on plagiarism. What else is there to say but, "Its taking someone's work without credit. Don't do it."?

I'm still working on getting some friends for this thing. I have to check if any of my friends have a livejournal, but I doubt it.

So that's about it. I have class tomorrow, which I don't want to go to. But at least I'm done at 12:45.

First Day

Sun, 12 Nov 2006 03:56:57 GMT

Okay. So, this is my first LJ. It took me forever to figure out how to make the layout work...Yes, I'm a newb. I don't have any friends yet. I guess I need to get some.